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There is a new program that is airing on October 1st on the Discovery Health Channel called Autism x6. It’s about this married couple who have 6 kids and all of them have been diagnosed with autism. My husbands little brother is autistic and because of that I’ve been educating myself on autism. My Brother-in-law is 21 years old now and still lives with my Mother-in-law and Father-in-law.

My Mother-in-law and myself have talked a lot about austsm and I’ve seen some other program about how hard it is on the family, and that’s just with one child. This program is about how this Mother and Father have 6 children with autism, some not so severe, some who are really sever.

Anyway, I have it set on my DVR in case my MIL wants to see it.

Mom went home today. She’s flying on a plane right now. She texted me before she left letting me know the plane was leaving late. She’s so excited about her new (my old) iPhone. She’s texting me left and right, she’s taking pictures of things and sending them to me, she’s just so excited she can get her email all the time. She’s quite addicted to her email. I’m proud of her for learning all this fan-dangled technology (her words, isn’t she cute?)

On the way back from the airport Brendan and I went by Harry’s Whole Foods and got some yummy guacamole and blue corn chips that are really good. Oh ya, and cereal. OMG, this cereal is so good. I don’t remember the name but I’ll take a look at it later.

Now that I’m officially withdrawn from university I have more time for WoW. My priest is up 65 (Cumbersome) that I leveled mainly for the guild, since I already have a 70 priest on horde side. Found out today one of our officers who has a shadow priest and told me they didn’t want to do anything other than shadow (thus the reason for me making a holy priest) just respec’d holy in my absence (since my Mother was here). Ahhhh. Such a nice backstab. Feels fucking great. Lots of guilds need priests, so at least I have that in my favor. Moving on.

I’m getting daily use out of my kindle. I didn’t think I’d be using it as much as I have been. It’s become as close to me as my MacBook Pro. Speaking of mac, I’ve been working on some cocoa programming using xcode. I somehow feel completely free now that I’m not in school. It feels great, my doctor was right. That was too much stress for right now.

After being bed-ridden and in pain, I’m finally back on my feet and I’m trying the best I can to not over-do it. I have to hand it to my doctor. He’s the only one that has put all his time and effort into helping me through this, explaining every little detail and why things work like they do, and most importantly, being aggressive on getting handle on the pain so that I’m comfortable. Every single time I walk out of his office I’m reassured that I will get through this, no matter what it takes or how long it takes. I do feel like I’m getting a little of “me” back … baby steps.

Ok, now, onnnnnnnn to the gadgets. I’m a gadget whore, and anyone who knows that this would be coming soon.

I got the Amazon Kindle!

I have a lot to say about this little device. It’s totally and completely amazing. It has electronic paper instead of an LCD screen and it can hold a change for 2-4 days. My list of great things the Amazon Kindle can do.

1. You can download books right from Amazon Web Site and most of the Kindle books are half price of what the actual book would cost.
2. It’s so thin and so light. I don’t have to lug around all those java and xcode books around anymore. I just put them on my Kindle!
3. It’s so easy to read. No more trying to keep the page open so you can read the words that seem to trail all the way down into the spin. Ugh, I hated that, especially in bed
4. The Kindle is going to pay for itself with the amount of books I get from Amazon (and now having all those books with me all at one .
5. You can change the text size in the book so for those of us who are used to squinting. There is a setting there for all times.

And … Bedtime

Sorry for all that have called in the last 3-4 days. I’ve been bed bound with pain.

Saw the doctor again today and I’ve been put on a Fentanyl Transdermal System (morphine patch) along with more pain meds and countless other meds. I’m so tired of meds. I’m also being tested for Lime Disease, Ebson-Bar, Celeac, and I forget what else. I haven’t been to work all week and called my boss today to let him know what’s up. He said he’s been worried and he’s going to try and get most of my hours on call because I’m the only one he trusts (beside himself) for priority 1 & 2 issues. I told him I have to come in at least 3 times a week because I need to get out of the house for my own sanity, he said he understood. I’m finally feeling better tonight.

Things the last few days have been complete hell. I’ve never felt so much pain before.

:: cries ::

I’m in a funk. A real funk. So I’m keeping pretty silent these days, hiding away.

Making a blankie for Chriss.

Drank a Diet Sunkist as the sun came up through the woods.

That’s about it….I don’t feel like talking about it.

Have you ever had a great idea that you are excited about, or you come to some sort of decision or idea only to forget it later, lost forever in the grey matter sitting on top of your shoulders? One of my major goals in life lately is to reduce as much stress as I possibly can right now. Not only am I don’t it for health reasons but I’m trying to get everything (GTD, tasks, projects, ideas, lists, insert other things I’m forgetting) in some sort of organized fashion.

So, I’m taking one of XV’s idea’s and applying it to my everyday life. I have myself a notebook (my favorite one) where I can purge my brain. So far it’s working out incredibly well. I had a big homework assignment due tonight and I didn’t have the bottleneck anxieties infect my ability to concentrate and write code.

I just need to keep it up and not quick since it’s so easy to blame procrastination on lack of time. Lack of time is a huge reality for me but maybe if I can get a handle on my time management I can reduce the stress of it.

I started writing again. Most won’t understand that statement. Very few will find the significance and see it as comparable to someone who scaled a mile high brick wall.