Sometimes one has to let go

As much as I try
As much as I fail
The bad decisions
The short list of good ones

The pain overwhelms
Life takes a turn
Not for the better
Just the opposite

And I’m still here
Chugging away
Like nothing is wrong
When everything is

I’m so tired
I’m so sick
My plate can’t hold
Everything it should

I will never forget
When everything changed
My sentence, my cross to bare
Is mine only, forever

~yolospat