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I’ve been on an amazing adventure this year. From the beginning of the year so many positive and inspiring events have occurred and I’ve been soaking as much as possible like a sponge. I’m starting to realize that in the world of sponges I don’t hold as much as other sponges may. What I mean to say is my world and my immediate circle of friends and family has gone from a 6-pack to a truckload in a moderately short amount of time. I think I do this by habit. There are so many amazing sparklers going on all at once that I want to absorb every single flash and firework including all the “owwwwww” and “ahhhhhh” and “ohhhhhhhh”’s there are because this light show has been so amazing and content heavy that I’ve decided to create a book about the journey of finding my biological family while I’m in the moment of it happening, and while I’m learning for the first time how to be a daughter again and a sister and an aunt and a niece and the completion of me as a whole person.

Why have I decided to put it in book form? I’ve had so many people ask me to tell them everything that has happened and the enormity is just too vast to put in an email or over an evening meal. It’s 33 years of a full circle joining as one again. I’ve had a lot of book idea’s for the last few years as it was. Some of them are halfway finished, some I started on or haven’t edited yet. My sister, Darci, and I have started a book together. It’s mostly her book and I read through and put in my two cents or if changes need to be made. I have decided to concentrate on my “Journey of Family” book first (not sure if that will be the ending title, but it’s how I will refer to it until there is a finalized title).

I’ve been getting back in the habit of writing after a month and a half long writers block. For the last few years I’ve been mostly writing in the analog form. The good old paper journal and a pen. Shortly after my trip when I flew out to see Brendan and meet up with Darci and Shane I ran out of pens and because money is as tight as it can be right now I just stopped writing. Writing for me is not only therapeutic but it helps me work through my thoughts better especially with the ADD. I also get too claustrophobic in my own body if I don’t get all those emotions, thoughts and feelings outside of myself and writing is my vice for that. Last month I’ve trying commit to writing everyday again in my LiveJournal (friends only) just to type and free write. It’s been helping as it always has and I felt confident enough to start back up here on my public blog. Not saying it’s going to be an everyday thing, but I’m going to shoot for at least twice a week. I don’t want to over pressure myself along with the other projects I’m working on that I can’t talk about it. Stay tuned!