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I know it’s been a while. I think I’m officially going through my mid-life crisis. From the point it started until recently it’s been a negative experience. I’m got really tired of black and white and I’m including all shades of gray into the spectrum. Who knows, this time next year I’ll be at 256 colors, and in two years I’ll reach a million. It’s something fun and silly to look forward to. Perfect timing for a list of things I’ve learned in the last year:

1. Stop taking everything so seriously. There is a time and a place for serious matters, but that time and place doesn’t mean all the time, every place. Relax, unhook your shoulders from hanging off your ears like you were standing in a cylinder tube and let your hair down. Heck, just chop your hair off! (if you do chop your hair off, remember to donate it to Locks of Luv)
2. Stop worrying about everyone else and worry about yourself. Anything beyond the tip of my nose is the extent of what I have control over. Everything else is just compost and wasted energy better used in a more positive way.
3. KISS – Keep It Simple Stupid – Really, it’s not complicated. Always trust in your own Jiminy Cricket. Most times he’s right. Think about the times you didn’t listen to your intuition yet saw the signs afterwards of your intuition trying to get your attention.
4. Love – And keep on doing it.

One huge reason I’m failing as a blogger lately is my lack of blogging. One huge problem I have is simple to fix, but for me it seems hard as hell. When I have so much going on, I don’t blog. That’s when I need to blog the most.

Reason being:

1. My blog is a chronological record of my life. I’m missing big details over the last few years that I wish I would have written about. That is something I need to fix.

2. My blog is a place for reflection and growth. Life is a lesson, and there is something to learn around every corner. I need to take advantage of that.

3. I have a love for gadgets and technology. I love reviewing products, and I haven’t done more than I can count on one hand in the last year. This disappoints me because a lot of great technology has come out and I have no record of it.

4. It has always been inside me to help people. I have been helping people with technology since 1998 and even tho I’ve complained about it in the past, when I know I’ve really helped someone it’s the best feeling ever.

5. I’ve been wanting to get my blog underway ever since I got laid off in July. It’s already December and I’ve yet to do that because I had no idea where to start. So I decided to start from the beginning and take it one step at a time.

Those are my commitments for this blog and they have always been. I’ve been a very bad procrastinator to keeping up with it especially when it’s something I love most of all.

My inspiration in this has been my sissy Camille who has started the project I’ve always had in my head but couldn’t execute. Now is the time.

Wow. I had 95 people subscribed to my blog about 4 hours ago. Now I have 19. Either people think I’m having a melt down and they rather not see it, or there is something wrong with feed burner.

Come back to me people!

Well, things might actually be looking up. Turns out I have a nice healthy heart with no problems. Couldn’t ask for a better report. I tried to get a picture of the ulta-sound but the lady didn’t have a printer. Bummber. I’m trying to get as many pictures of my insides as possible. So far I have my bronchial scope and the MRI of my lower back (it sort of looks like a staircase) .. that’s what I get for not taking care of it sooner.

I’m 80 pounds lighter since the first of the year. No, I’m not dieting, I didn’t have any radical surgeries (at least ones I wasn’t completely conscious for), I do for the most part eat really healthy but I’ll have the occasional junk food every once in a while. I’m losing it from being sick and losing my appetite. It’s amazing how much faster you move minus 80 pounds tugging along with you. I hope it keeps up actually. Everyone wants to lose weight without doing anything, but … I know they don’t want to suffer through the sickness the whole time.

I am, get this …. I am getting better. I’m taking half the pain meds I used to take. I haven’t taken Oxycodone for 2 weeks and I eliminated my morphine capsule at night. I’m scared because for long periods of time on narcotic pain meds, the pain subconsciously feels worse than what it is. That scares me. Not sure I can handle much more, but it has gone down a bit. i don’t walk through days with an 8 on the pain scale. Right now it’s about a 5.5. That’s progress! I’m also feeling good that every single thing I get out of my closet falls off me. It’s been a long time since that happened. I have to wear a belt with every pair of jeans I have. I can move better, my shortness of breath has nearly gone away.

Nothing with my disease(s)/syndromes are easy fixes. All of them are permanent, but the difference is, I got me some good doctors finally who actually care how I feel. My Pulmonologist took it upon himself to get me into a drug trial for severe asthmatics to try this preventive drug which is most importantly, steroid free. It’s not like I have an appointment wit him … this was an after thought on his point to make sure I’m getting the best treatment available. Finally, I found the right people.

In other news, my Mother is flying down on Saturday to spend the week with us. Since I have Monday off I want to drive to Savannah Georgia. Since I’m getting better I think I’ll be able to handle the car ride fairly well, just as long as Mom and I don’t start one of our fights (like last time). They never last long, I just hate them to begin with. I’ve missed her so much, and I want her to see Spring in Kennesaw. Can’t wait!

As for work, I had a bad few days obviously if you read my twitter. Confidence is back and I’m right there in the middle of he game again getting done what needs to be done. Today I’ve had to give my team a tiny push as the deadline I set for them is coming up and I’m still seeing a lot of tickets in their queue still which is only 50% of the way I’m expecting them to go. We had a 45 second quick meeting reminding them of the impending clock that keeps ticking by not leaving them much time to reach their goal. I have faith, however.

Headed out to get a heart ulta-sound. I haven’t updated recently so for that I apologize but hopefully later today. In the meantime, here’s Jupiter, our newest part of the family all wrapped up in her 8 core goodness.

I’ve been sleeping for the majority of the time now that I’m not taking my thyroid meds. I think my energy has depleted at least 75% because of it. Something I’m going to point out to Dr. S when I see him next week.

My pulmonary doctor did my allergy test. There were about 80 different things they were testing for. If it wasn’t so ironic and I didn’t already sort of know it anyway, the one and only thing I’m allergic to is my cats, out of 80 different things. That’s good since I’m in allergy america.

I have tell a funny about my husband. They take me out to do a breathing test on one of their machines so as I’m heading back to room 8 where they placed us in the first place I thought I smelled something foul. It got stronger the closer I got to my room and when I walked into my room, BAM.

“Did you fart?
“About a min after you left, you can still smell it?
“You can smell it all the way out in the hall!!!!!!!”

So here I am with two magazines wafting the air, hoping the smell either goes away or just gives up and stops stinking.

I saw my doctor coming so I put away the magazines really fast and sat on the bed. He walks in, looks around and says,

“Um, lets use the room next door, I’ll get one of the nurses to do your allergy test”

My husband cleared a room. With his butt. I was so embarrassed at the time, but the minute I walked out I was laughing. I told him he couldn’t do that and to go to the bathroom next time. He’s the only one I know who can have scentless farts so you never know what your going to get. Not that day. That day, he literally cleared a room.

They did schedule an endoscopy on me for this Thursday to look at the blockage in my airway and take a possible biopsy. They will put me out for a small time and my boss told me if I need to take the day and work from home that would be fine. I told him we’ll see.

Yesterday the majority of us went home because the A/C wasn’t working and it got to be 90 degrees in the office. I was sweating like a whore in church. I hope they have it fixed today.

Not sure why I’m up early but it feels good and I slept in the recliner last night so I don’t have any sort of backache. I give my MRI scans to my pain doc next week. I want to try and scan them all first tho, even if they are a little big. What’s a good stitching program?

And I finally got one. Having the student ACD membership program (which expires in two days ironically) we got our federal ax returns back and I texted Brendan if I could go ahead and get it spec’ed and ordered I’ll upgrade the RAM via www.ramjet.com since it’s so much cheaper. I also got the 3 year warranty with it. With the AC D and my student discount the ADW discount I saved nearly $900 bucks when purchasing. That’s huge Should be here this week or next.

Also ordered Fable II wihle I ws at it. Whoops (sorry baby, it really looked THAT good).

Bren was so nice about it. He said, spec it how you want love, you’ve been waiting for years for this. My Mother eventually said the same thing. It should b When I get it I’ll extract the data from my harddriives and install each 500GB drive in slot2 and slot3. from to expand storage and make myself a scratch space for my photos and video’s

From the reviews the biggest noticeable difference is if you are a multi-tasker and have a ton of programs opened at the same time running at any one given time. There aren’t many “wow’s”, “ooowwwww”, and “aaaahhhhhhsss” about working a single program to determine the computers strength.
Hip Hip, hurray!!!!!

This was originally an email to my sissy, Camille, but I thought it would be a nice catch post since I haven’t been on the computer much and share my excitement with you.

Be expecting unboxing photos shortly, whenever it gets here. I just choose ground because they are usually good at getting stuff out to you in a couple days.

Now I need suggestions for a name …..thoughts? Anyone?

I’ve been having some really horrible sleeping problems. My sleep meds have decided to quit working on me giving me nothing left to aid in the sleeping process so after a few days of that the body starts giving into the exhaustion to where I was finding myself asleep at my desk (which is quite comfortable to sleep at btw).

Finally, I was able fall asleep and it took a full 24 hours for my health bar to regain its full strength. The bad thing about this is it’s 3:30am so there isn’t much luck going back to sleep after I’ve already woken up. I tried, didn’t work.

I did however take another fall in the bathroom. I think my shoes were still wet from being out on the back porch trying to get my dog to come back inside I landed square on my right knee. For people with Fibro, falling has to be the worst. It’s not just a fall. It’s a total body flare up so not only does my knee hurt but my body feels like its just been through the meat grinder. Ouch.

My plan is to work early and go see my new doctor at 1pm. I hope he helps. I’m really tired of this doctor hopping. Mom keeps telling me there is a doctor out there that will help me and after a year my 8 ball is saying that things are looking grim. I’ll keep trying. What else can I do at that point?

I’m looking forward to the 31 days to a better blog challenge.

I have never done a challenge before, whether it be one of those “write a book in a month deals” or the “1001 goals to accomplish in 1001” days (even if I’m still working on that one, I just don’t have all the goals on there yet. So when I came across Pro Blogger as I’m going through my RCC feeds in Google Reader and came across their 31 days to build a better blog. This task at hand actually makes me excited and gives me something to look forward to. The contest begins on April Fools day (April 1st for those across seas that don’t keep up with American tradition.

I’m totally tagging my best friend on this one. Cammy-bear, you up for the challenge?