.:: Yolospat ::.

Usually when I wake up in the morning I scroll through all the tweets I missed without really reading them. Not only did I go through each one this morning (I’m sure it was because coffee was still brewing) but I actually read each one. Before coffee!! HA!

Anyway, I found myself a little gem that will make a huge impact on my life. It was a quote. Not only was it exactly what I needed to hear, it was something I needed to believe. Sure, this divorce thing sucks. I’m selling the home I feel in love with without a future home (yet) in the future. I’m actually really trying to act normal as much as possible thinking it will help with the sadness and loss when really I want to curl up in bed and cry my eyes out for the next year with a good supply of kleenex. Can you imagine the monster of a headache you’d have after that? Whoa.

This came from Martin Allsop’s twitter page .. “We must let go of the life we have planned, so as to accept the one that is waiting for us” – Joseph Campbell

Like I told my Mother, I want to get through this whole divorce, moving, etc. thing without any regrets which means I need to be unemotional for a moment to make rational thoughts. Good luck, right?

I was talking to Tiffany last night that I haven’t even heard from my in-laws in over a month. My Mother-in-law and I used to talk/email daily with lots of “I love you’s” and she would always start her letters with her nick name for me .. “Jenny Dear” .. it really hurts and makes me question the whole concept of “family” again. How can you love one of your family members one day, then never speak to them again? It just doesn’t make sense to me .. it just makes me sad, hurt, and in a way abandoned.

Moving forward .. the realtor will be out tomorrow to take pictures of our house and we’ll officially have it on the market with a virtual tour even, hurray!

I watched the first episode of John and Kate plus 8 last night where they were interviewed separately for the first time. It was said. I’m pretty sure I’m being bias for siding with Kate (being a woman and all) but Jon has just been a dick. He’s always been a dick on shows, cracking these jokes that would make any woman feel like shit. Anyway, I see this so often. Its the male midlife crisis and it ends up hurting families more than anything. I’ve seen that happen in my own family, within my own group of friends, within my Mothers group of friends and there is just no reason to throw in the towel without doing everything possible. Jon said on the show that he has a hard time communicating. He’s right! He needs to work with someone on that. Kate is overbearing, but I think she’s overwhelmed, I mean, look at all her little responsibilities she has everyday. He has no idea the pressure she was being put through while he was at work. Or maybe he does, I don’t know.

What I do know is Kate is scared of being a failure, a static and just like any woman who are social nurturing beings, they DON’T want to raise a family alone. When they had kids, she saw Jon in the picture from beginning to end. She saw a partner, a lover, a best friend and it was so obvious in her face last night that she is still so in love with him. The way he talked, he couldn’t care less about her and is ready for the next adventure around the corner, leaving the adventure he already started and hasn’t finished. Sort of like he graduated from college and he’s ready for college.

It doesn’t work like that Jon. You IDIOT. You aren’t a kid anymore ready to start something new and exciting. You’re a grown man with a wife and family and you have to push those fears of getting older away because you are supposed to grow old with your family. Go buy a red sports car or something but don’t traumatize these kids because you can’t figure it out.

Their new hours is pretty, to be somewhat positive. I forsee goats and chickens and other animals like that in the future. Kids growing up on a farm have such a great advantage.

I’m sorry Kate. I’m rooting for you that you can get through this. You’re a woman, you can, but I hope time will heal wounds faster than usual and you’ll find the one that does want the job that Jon didn’t finish.

I have never done a challenge before, whether it be one of those “write a book in a month deals” or the “1001 goals to accomplish in 1001” days (even if I’m still working on that one, I just don’t have all the goals on there yet. So when I came across Pro Blogger as I’m going through my RCC feeds in Google Reader and came across their 31 days to build a better blog. This task at hand actually makes me excited and gives me something to look forward to. The contest begins on April Fools day (April 1st for those across seas that don’t keep up with American tradition.

I’m totally tagging my best friend on this one. Cammy-bear, you up for the challenge?

This has to be one of the greatest video’s I’ve seen for a long time. Great job Super_Josh!!!!!!!!!!

Dear Google,

It has been my ultimate dream to experience software engineering at a whole new level. A Google level!

If you do a history on me or look me up you will see that my desire to work at Google hasn’t been kept secret and it’s been a goal of mine for a very very long time. So if there happens to be any Google Recruiters reading my blog that need student interns at the Boulder Campus holler and I’m there! You wouldn’t even have to pay me if you didn’t want. See? Win win!

You can reach me at yolospat at gmail dot com (I know, isn’t it the best email ever?)

Your future employee,

Jen

I love notebooks. You know, the kind that you actually write in. There is one particular notebook I bought sometime back in 2005 that was perfect size, I loved the paper texture, and the different colored paper inside. Since then I hadn’t been able to find that type of notebook since. Well, until now.

Kokuyo Brilliantes had the notebooks in stock, the only catch is I had to pay in bulk. No problem there, I’m pretty sure I will use them all up in about 6 months. I write everything down no matter what it is. It helps me remember things, I know right where to go to get important information that I had forgotten about, I use it to write down idea’s, thoughts, you name it.

Currently I have the pink one, but when you buy it bulk all three colors are included in the package. I love the colors, and I just love these notebooks. Yay for the internet!

This change in weather has been kicking my ass. This morning I was so sore and stiff. The pain lately has been a lot worse too, especially in my legs. My feet have been swelling up all weekend too so I’m trying to keep them propped up as much as possible. I have the just-got-run-over-by-a-mac-truck feeling today and lately.

I found a web site Friday night that streams the police scanner at Scan Cobb. When I was growing up my Father was a fireman and we always had a police scanner playing 24/7. I used to have a mobil scanner, but I don’t anymore so it was exciting that they actually stream this stuff. It makes me feel like my Grandma Reba who still has her scanner going all the time.

Tomorrow is my husband and I’s 2nd year anniversary. It’s amazing.

When I came home from work on Friday I did the usual. Got out my Macbook Pro and set it up on my desk (I take it to and from work everyday, it’s constantly with me) and I turned on the TV to see if there would be anything good on. Sometimes I just like having the TV on for background noise. I switched over from Comcast to AT&T U-Verse a few months ago forever bidding farewell to an ISP who had shown me time and time again how horrible they were yet I felt like I didn’t have a choice since they were the only ISP available who had the speeds I wanted.

Anyway, with the plan we got a DVR which we put in our living room. The only time my husband and I watch TV in the living room is when the DVR recorded a show that we both like, or if we have company. I usually watch TV in my home office otherwise. So on Friday I noticed that I had a few new options on my menu screen then I usually do, and one of them was “Watch Recorded TV” .. I just have a regular cable box in my home office, but to my surprise and excitement I was able to pull what we have on the DVR and watch it! This was very exciting for me, and another reason why we went with AT&T U-Verse.

Now, I didn’t have all the options that I would had I been in the living room watching the TV with the actual DVR attached to it. I couldn’t delete shows from my home office like I could in the living room, which really isn’t a big deal. So now I’m looking for more shows that only “I” want to watch and record on the DVR since I have access to it now.

I don’t regret ever switching. I’ve hated Comcast for the last 8 years I was a Comcast customer. I’ve gotten horrible customer service from them and at at least 3 different locations I had a lot of problems with Comcast dropping signal. Very annoying. So, dear Comcast, I’m so happy that I will never have you in my home again

I think I’ve known this for a long long time, but today it’s been present in every way possible. I’m ready for a career change. No no, I’m still a geek and the computer industry will always be my passion. I’ve been doing tech support since 1998 and at this point in the game, I’m completely burnt out. It’s just not what I want to be doing. My focus in IT has always been development and programming and with school I’m making the necessary steps to get to that point but more then ever I want to find an entry-level position in that field. Something to get my foot in the door, and eventually my life long dream of being a Software Engineer at Google.

So, I’m going to start looking for something. The tricky part is the time in between paychecks that might be hard, but at the same time, we just got our tax money back and we threw that into savings and paid off our credit card.

Baby steps are always hard for me. I always want every thing to happen fast but like anything big, it’s a slow process especially to work toward the end goal.

I have the next week off from school which is a nice change but I’ve been filling up my extra time with WoW which might not be the best idea.

I was going to have a BBQ this Friday with all the people from work, but I’m starting to second guess that and since I haven’t advertised it I might just forget it all together. I overheard a work friend today putting tech support down and it just put a bad taste in my mouth since he’s been a friend for years. In fact, I’m the one that trained him when he first came to the company. I guess you can’t always trust every one.

If I were living in my dreams right now, working at Google then I would be doing this today:

I’m still fighting off a head-cold and last night the stomach bug reared it’s ugly head yet again. I can’t afford to take anymore time off work so I’m trying to work through it best I can. I had a really hard time sleeping last night. I think I finally nodded off around 5:30am … I need a serious nap!

The good news is I got my taxes done last night. This is quite an accomplishment for me actually because it’s the first time I did my taxes by myself (or without having someone do them for me). I used Turbo Tax which was easy as pie. I highly recommend it. Turbo Tax will ask you all the questions and you click on all the answers and walla! Your tax return is e-filed and 7-14 days later your refund will be directly deposited in your back account. I wish I would have done my taxes two weeks ago!

That’s right … Apple is the third most valuable according to Apple shares.

Of course, Microsoft and Google take the #1 and #2 spots (yay Google!).

This makes me smile for more reasons than one